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[ersatzach]

Chris and I took a shower after making love. I'm having a hard time... having him on top. I feel panicked... But Chris understands. I feel lucky beyond belief for that.

"So...blue button down shirt...dark Ralph Lauren jeans...tie?" he asks around his toothbrush.

"Yeah, that light blue one," I smile. I choose a black long sleeved shirt, a plaid shirt over it and black jeans. "What do you think?" I say.

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[cfine.insanejournal.com]

Those black jeans hug his thighs...his ass. I stand there for quite a while with my toothbrush hanging out of my mouth. "You look hot..." I say finally. I think I'm drooling...

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I laugh. I take the toothbrush, tap his chin so he closes his mouth. "Get some clothes on," I wink, going in search of my red chucks...

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

I run into the bathroom and rinse out my mouth then head back to the bedroom to get dressed. I watch him as he searches through our luggage for the shoes he wants and...

"Zach...I don't know if I tell you often enough how beautiful I think you are."

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

"You managed before me... but you won't have to worry anymore. I got you covered. We kiss again. "Let's go meet the fam..."

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

I tighten my grip and hold him in place. "One more kiss...please...for luck..."

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

"You don't need it... but I'll never say no to kissing you..." I birng our mouths together in a deep, passionate kiss.

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"Hold tight," I ask him quietly. He takes my hand and does just that, clutches it tightly as we make our way downstairs where his family has started to gather.

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

Chris turns on the Pine charm. He's very good at it but I can see thhrough it, see the insecurities bubbling below the surface. I give his hand a tight squeeze as my mom calls us over. "That's my uncle and aunt..."

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

Zach's mother introduces me in a very different way than she did when we ran into her friends at the play. She slips her arm around me and calls me Zach's partner, tells her bother and his wife how very happy she is that Zach has found such a wonderful man. "It's good to meet you..."

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I roll my eyes. "Everyone in LA is too thin," I say. "Chris is an amazing cook, ask mom, he made us steaks the other night."

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Joe walks over and adds that I am responsible for the sweet potato casserole that will be served with tonight's dinner. at the mention of food, the entire family gathers around me and asks me where I learned to cook and what are my favorite things to make. I like this family. Food is very important. Joe pulls Zach away and I am follow him with my eyes...

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

Joe asks if I'm okay. I look at him like he's grown a second head. He says he can see something in my eyes and in the interactions with Chris. "I'm fine and so is Chris. Talk to me in LA, okay?" That just gets me another look but he relents. I look over to where Chris is talking to my cousins and looks animated and nervous. I walk over. "What did I miss?" I ask, kissing his cheek.

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"I hope so..." I say softly. "I want to make a good impression...and I want them to know that I can take care of you..."

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"Just be you. That's all you ever have to be," I murmur, kissing his lips. "Come on, I gots me a hankering for some turkey with all the fixins..."

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We take our seats at the table and he fills his plate...and cleans it...and has seconds. This is the most I've seen him eat in...ever. "You're gonna go into a turkey coma later..."

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

My cousin, Elsie, tells him he grown out of the awkward faze. "I don't know, you should see him dance... talk about akward," I tease. I don't even know if he's a good dancer. I've never seen him-- something I should remedy.

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"He's right," I nod...though I don't know if he's ever seen me do more than slow dance. Elsie says she should take us out dancing before we leave. "I thik I'd rather kick your ass at karaoke."

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"Oh, my, God," I say. I can now picture him and his dad doing just that. "Is that how you Pines celebrate Thanksgiving?"

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"Oh, yeah. Proud family tradition. The after dinner ball scratch."

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I burst into another fit of giggles. "I guess not..."

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"You're adorable..." I whisper and kiss his lips...then kiss him again because I can't help myself. "Wanna go flop on the couch and scratch our balls...?'

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

It's so... new and strange in a good way to be here with Chris. I've never had a boyfriend home for the holidays. It feels good to be here, relaxed, with Chris next to me, his hand around my hand, our shoulders touching the way they always do when we sit next to each other. We can't seem to sit more than a few centimeters apart. He's chatting with someone about Nietzsche. Just all casual like. Lord do I love him.

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

I hold my arm up and he settles against me. His uncle, who is extremely well read, asks me how we met so I tell him the story. He asks me how star Trek is going and I tell him Zach's first day and how proud I was of him. I can't believe how good this feels...to be here with Zach and his family. It all feels so...real. In my head i give thanks...for Zach and all of the incredible things he has brought into my life. The events of eralier in the week seem like they were a thousand years ago...at least for now.

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"Just a bit.... mostly I feel calm... tranquil... and don't tell me those mean the same thing, Berkeley."

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

I laugh. "Far be it from me to ever point out that you were being redundant...or repetitious...ooof..." I groan when he pokes my stomach. He looks up at me with sleepy eyes and I get quiet...touch his cheek. "You're so beautiful..."