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After sending Chris to see his dad I stopped over at Pat's. We chatted a bit, and I'm not doing a very good job of hiding that something is off. I told him a little but not much. Pat was Pat. Kind, understanding, offering to be there. I said I'll talk to him more soon. Not sure if I can but... I've got to try... After getting my pets I stopped for some supplies. Chris will probably do a bigger food shopping later, he's kind of taken over in that department since he cooks and I don't that much. But I got some essentials. Eggs, a rotisserie chicken, some of that soup. Good cheese, crusty bread, tomatoes, etc. I get home and Chris isn't here.

I get the pets settled and fed and sit down the coffee I picked up at intelligentsia. I got chris one too, but it'll go cold I guess if he doesn't get here soon. I suddenly realize that in the last week we've hardly been apart for more than a few minutes... and to be truly alone right now feels-- unsettling. I notice my hand is trembling slightly as I hold the cup. I resis the urge to text him to see where he is. I can't rush him home. He needs to talk to his dad. "Noah!" I call and my dog comes over and settled on my lap. "That's a good boy..."

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"And after-- you were so trusting with me from the start. It didn't make you antsy about trusting men?" I whisper.

"I knew that not all men were going to be like Jeff. It helped that I understood that our personalities clashed in love...in bed. We butted heads instead of complimenting each other the way that partners should. With you...I dunno...we just seemed to...mesh. I could feel it..."

"I didn't know that. Sam was-- the first time I tried to have a real relationship. I'd dated but not... I was still figuring myself out I guess..." I look at him. "I'm glad you could feel how we fit-- I felt it too... right from the day we ran into each other in Scott's kitchen."

I smile and kiss his lips. "We collided..." I whisper.