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[ersatzach]

After sending Chris to see his dad I stopped over at Pat's. We chatted a bit, and I'm not doing a very good job of hiding that something is off. I told him a little but not much. Pat was Pat. Kind, understanding, offering to be there. I said I'll talk to him more soon. Not sure if I can but... I've got to try... After getting my pets I stopped for some supplies. Chris will probably do a bigger food shopping later, he's kind of taken over in that department since he cooks and I don't that much. But I got some essentials. Eggs, a rotisserie chicken, some of that soup. Good cheese, crusty bread, tomatoes, etc. I get home and Chris isn't here.

I get the pets settled and fed and sit down the coffee I picked up at intelligentsia. I got chris one too, but it'll go cold I guess if he doesn't get here soon. I suddenly realize that in the last week we've hardly been apart for more than a few minutes... and to be truly alone right now feels-- unsettling. I notice my hand is trembling slightly as I hold the cup. I resis the urge to text him to see where he is. I can't rush him home. He needs to talk to his dad. "Noah!" I call and my dog comes over and settled on my lap. "That's a good boy..."

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[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"Hey..." I reach out and touch his cheek. "It was your idea, Zach. I know you don't begrudge me going..." I lean in and kiss him again. "I missed you, too, Z. I love you."

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

"I love you," I say. "So, how's your dad? Is there turkey and stuffing? Cause I bought some stuff but... I could do with thanksgiving part duex..."

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"Oh...if you're in the mood we can have a full on Thanksgiving feast tonight, don't you worry..." I say and sit back, hold open my arms to him. he snuggles against my chest and I kiss the top of his head. "Dad sends his love. We talked and he wants you to know that if you need him he's there for you."

[spockn-at.insanejournal.com]

"He's a very kind man," I say softly. "Do you-- did it feel better for you to talk to him? I can tell you're holding a lot inside. I guess we both are..."

[cfine.insanejournal.com]

"We are...holding a lot it...it's not good for either of us. It's not healthy. We need to talk more...to others...and to each other. It felt good to talk to my dad. He was so understanding and he let me cry gave me a hug..."